Stupid Girl

The inhabitants of my head are telling me that things are going wrong. I don't have the books I need for revision, I don't have a proper plan for my future and I don't have any drive to make things better. Surely there's something wrong. But I think the most painful thing is that nobody knows that things are in fact taking a turn for the worse. I'm alone in this, and alone in this feeling of guilt, frustration and anger. If only I never went down this route and if only I had known earlier on how stupid I really was.

When I noticed...

It did come to a point when life was just held back b stupid rutines and compulsive behaviours which for the sake of my sanity would not leave me alone. Nights spent angry and days spent frustrated were the only things within my view. To everyone else who did not know me, I was just a person who had her priorities screwed up and her head in the fucking clouds


For those who'd understand me, they empathised.