Stupid Girl

The inhabitants of my head are telling me that things are going wrong. I don't have the books I need for revision, I don't have a proper plan for my future and I don't have any drive to make things better. Surely there's something wrong. But I think the most painful thing is that nobody knows that things are in fact taking a turn for the worse. I'm alone in this, and alone in this feeling of guilt, frustration and anger. If only I never went down this route and if only I had known earlier on how stupid I really was.